And you may, or may not know what I mean. But I can tell you that it was a toughie to realize and I got a funny feeling it’s going to be a rather emotional year.
First, sorry I’ve been away for so long. I had to redirect and refocus again. Things are changing. It was time to set new goals and not look back. I had much to do within me and for me before I could open up where I am, what I’m doing, and making a stride to better myself and share stories so those that read can learn, laugh, or better themselves as well.
I’ll be doing my daddydoright blog every Tuesday going forward. Thursdays, I’ll be writing a separate blog which I’ll share next Tuesday to help you find and become a better you.
So how’s the new year working out for you so far?
We are almost six weeks into the new year. Last Wednesday, my daughter turned 17. I didn’t think much about it until Tuesday night. I got home from work and sat at my computer. I began looking through photos and thinking about how quickly the last 17 years have flown. I then went to Facebook and posted a few pics of her throughout the years, wishing her a happy birthday.
Then it was waterworks – for two days!
I’ve been a single father, fighting and struggling to do the best I can, to be the best dad, to guide, love, care for, and offer any life lessons, advice, or be an ear to listen whenever she needed me. I moved within a mile and a half of her mother’s home to be as close to her as possible. I never wanted her to feel I wasn’t far at all.
I didn’t sleep that night, tossing and turning, crying on and off. Finally at 6:30am on her birthday I decided to get up because there was no sense in trying to sleep and watch the news. I planned to pick her up at noon from school and take her to lunch as there really wasn’t anything she wanted for her birthday except a good place to eat.
My eyes were swollen so I didn’t remove my sunglasses as we sat outside to eat. We talked, laughed, and all I could do was look at just how marvelous a young lady she has become. It was happiness and sadness all wrapped into on big ball of emotional mess. I took her back to school and dropped her off, realizing that the waterworks would soon come again (and it didn’t help that I had been up for 30 straight hours).
After coming home and passing out on my coach for five hours, I woke up and felt…amazing. I walked to my “2018 Goals” board and looked it over, carefully scrutinizing what I had written down five short weeks prior. I then walked to my “2018 Vision Board” carefully examining my future travel destinations and living quarters (it’s called Sterling on the Lake in Flowery Branch and one of the most beautiful neighborhoods I have ever been and will live one day).
I sat at the computer, working on finishing up my third motivational book to be released in a few short weeks via Amazon Kindle and Smashwords.
This feeling of greatness came over me. I had goosebumps and my eyes welled up with pure happiness.
I realized that I successfully helped to raise a wonderful individual. She would be graduating high school in a few short months then off to college in August 2018.
It was then that everything was OK. I can now focus on myself. I now have the ability and right to do all the things I wanted to do but chose not to do to make sure I was as available as I could be for my daughter.
Am I where I want to be in my life as far as career and success?
But I’m heading that way, quickly. I have some wonderful strides I’ve been making in the last 5 weeks to hit those goals on my board. I’ve dedicated myself to doing so and I haven’t let up since.
Everything is great! I look at the accomplishments and achievements and I smile. I had a big hand in contributing. I’m a proud dad. And now it’ll be just fine to be selfish. It’s time to work on becoming the best I can be for me…and for my daughter. I owe it to her. I owe it to myself. I have just begun walking that road to greatness. The future looks very bright…for Daddy and Daddy’s (Always) Little Girl!